I am currently in day 1 of the second weekend of the Introduction Leaders Program in Landmark’s Worldwide. Its been six weeks out of a seven and half months long program where we deal with life and create change to transform ourselves and the world around us.
It’s been an interesting ride so far. We came in this morning, the program started at 9 am, and there was so much energy with a DJ and Emcee pumping up the crowd. It was inspiring to see hundreds of people give it their all so early in the morning on a Saturday, where most people would still be hungover from going out on a Friday night.
Today, I had a lot of realizations that will be useful to practice and get better at. I noticed how I was still okay with so many areas of my life trying to get by and get away with so many things because of my charm and smile. I know that I try to push my limits and get by and it’s not healthy because I am not being responsible for my actions and even if its unconscious I should be more aware of it.
I was not being responsible in so many areas of my life and using Landmark as a scapegoat and felt like a victim to this extremely intense program that requires a lot of energy to complete all of the practices. It’s about a 10 to 16 hours a week program for seven and a half months.
We learned about how we let ourselves off the hook and blame everyone else besides ourselves for our problems and issues. Rarely do we take responsibility for our lives. How many of us have blamed a manager or a coworker for something? I am guilty of it, where I blame everyone else but myself. Oh, I didn’t like the product I was selling, or I didn’t get along with my manager. I remember even when I was interviewing at Linkedin, I caught myself instead of making excuses I finally owned up to it when he asked why did you leave your previous jobs. I would say, you know what? I was immature, and I did not realize this at the time, but I thought it was because I did not get along with my manager, but in reality, I was just bored, and I did not have the patience to stick it out. Looking back at it, it was a lesson in still being committed to my job I could have stuck it out and learn from everyone else around me.
Today helped me realize that there is so much more to life that is available to me. I thought I had it good with having a fantastic job and a life where I get to be of service every day. I know I capable of so much more. Thank you, Landmark, for giving us the space and practices to work on things in my life, such as my finances, committing to something, and doing it because I say I am instead of quitting and letting my ego get in the way.