Its been a year and a half since I started my meditation journey. Those of you who know me know how hard of a challenge this is for me. I can’t sit still for too long I always have to be doing something at all times 24/7 so today was extremely hard for me. Even when I am sleeping, I listen to podcasts to try to “soak in information so I can be productive at all times. Even when I am washing the dishes I am listening to podcasts. Basically the opposite of what mindfulness is and what they are preaching during these meditation seminars.
Some of the concepts we talked about are attachment. The attachments we have to our bodies and in life.
Generally, in life, there are so many things we cannot control. We can only control our response to things and situations. I have learned to be more mindful of my automatic reactions. There are certain things that trigger me and noticing how I respond to things that trigger me doesn’t mean I should ignore it or pretend it doesn’t exist but now I have more control over how I react instead of being automatically reactive to things I cannot be with.
It’s been an interesting journey. Sitting still has also allowed me to be more creative by tapping into my subconscious when I meditate sometimes it feels as if though I am dreaming. The power of one’s subconscious can be truly powerfully because it’s unfiltered instead of through what other people are expecting of you and it is more the true nature of what you want for yourself instead of what your parents or peers want you to be or do.
When I tap into that, I am able to express myself more freely without caring about what others may think of me. That is something I cannot control as well because no matter who you are there are always going to be others that do not believe in the same things you do. Especially when you put yourself out there.